to the romantic kid i knew

Sometimes, you do have a strong desire for something and maybe, you wish to grab - full range of it. Every one in sight leaves each time you see the person, alone in his little world while you picture him coming towards you. But he’s no longer the same. You honestly surrender all of your emotions that will lope to the core of his heart but this time, he won’t be aware of it anymore. You observe love in the hopes that he would soon be able to realize what he is losing.

You aren’t the romantic kid anymore…

Maybe you must find yourself, perhaps in yet undiscovered places…

Where you can build your character that he could’ve treasured…

If he only saw what was real…

tears for regrets

'There seems to be a kind of order in the universe…in the movement of the stars and the turning of the Earth and the changing of the seasons. But human life is almost pure chaos. Everyone takes his stance, asserts his own right and feelings, mistaking the motives of others, and his own."

- Katherine Anne PorterIn silence, in some way, fear dominates it all. Everything’s left with the unknown, hands outstretched seeking for companionship. The feeling of losing a part is somehow equal to a defeat from all chances and possibilities that had departed before they’ve given their meaning in one’s life. One person tries to let go, without even knowing what it is he’s letting go.

Then he attributes his blame to fate, when ignorance was the predator in the very first place.

Stop being one stupid fool, Ayie.

I don’t play games anymore. I disappeared from false belief's shadow. Cheers to what's real this time.

JAMES BLUNT'S Goodbye My Lover (Goodbye My Friend)

I am a dreamer but when I wake

You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take

And as you move on, remember me

Remember us and all we used to be