I can't imagine how many times I've lost it. Decisions aren't enough for my mind be in wonder. I want my body to be committed at the same time. How can I make a jump? I'm so upset; permitting my heart to get numb when someone doesn't acknowledge my need for touch and sensitivity. Look, inside my heart and you'll see addicitions, unforgiveness, pride!! All these rough edges were taken away the moment I realised that I have to change; one step at a time. Yes, I'm so fucking mad. Something happened today. One message made this day soooo hella shit. I hope the person would feel shame and guilt and couldn't escape!!
I'd like to give a part of myself having my other parts obedient as well.
Good thing, I learned two great words (both in Italian) today:
pazienza and sacrificio.
About Me
- Ayesa
- I've got no soul to sell. Listen to my only plea. I'll sacrifice my hands for the system to fall. Perfect little dream yet it can lead to a parade of rejection and failure.
2 comments:
I'm a stranger to your mind as well as body...
However, things aren't always beautiful especially when it comes to others
We have not control of what other do but we can control ourselves...
Let not your emotions be controlled by anything other than yourself
No one can make you feel anything unless you permit them to do so...
It is a virtue and bravery to have both qualities instilled within
You will be well and strong... to face the world ahead
:)
Hey dear, I wonder what did the message say till it got you so pissed off ... *hugs*
It's hard to not ignore the existence of that particular message but try not to let it take hostile over your emotions. I know it's hard but still I hope you'd feel better soon. Breathe in deep. Don't let that message control you. Let it go from your mind for a little while. You deserve a break dear.
In order for the person to feel shame and guilt; the person have to be able to identify what he/she has caused you. Sometimes people tend to do things without thinking about the consequences and how it would affect one's emotions.
We all have our own distinctive rough edges and yes; to change we need to take one step at a time and cannot rush. Patience is a virtue; cultivate that to the maximum and no one can harm you ...
I hope that you are feeling better by now. Do smile; cause you're one person who deserve happiness all the time.
*hugs*
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